”PO: How’s Shifu ever going to turn me into the Dragon Warrior? I mean, I’m not like The Five. I’ve got no claws, no wings, no venom. Even Mantis has those…thingies. Maybe I should just quit and go back to making noodles.
Oogway: Quit, don’t quit? Noodles, don’t noodles? You are too concerned about what was and what will be. There is a saying: yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the “present.”
Kung Fu Panda
I wanted to quit last week from my blog from everything: I thought I wasn’t good enough for this. How many writers out there create works of art that receive recognition. I started writing to put my passion out there for others to see. I want my work to show the little girl in my mind breaking free. Years she spent in her own mental prison placed in solitude because I gave up on her. I once told her everyone was right we stood for nothing. She spent years screaming at me from a distance every moment in self-doubt. She and I need to repair the damage we created and it starts today.
I am my promise to not throw this white flag of surrender into the wind. Even with the last few days of sucking with people and my mental disagreements I will not give in. I owe it to the little girl I locked away in my mind and told her to be perfectly silent. I put her away to appear strong my will unbroken. If I had given her chance to bond with the woman on the outside, we would have been able to take on any challenge. I placed brick walls around her with each event in my life that left us broken. She tried to break to the wall countless times. I built more mental bricks to hide her away telling her to be silent as I was being silenced on the outside. I know now that I should have let her free allowing us to heal together.
It’s easy to forget the child that lives within ourselves. For those that suffered abuse that inner child is commonly placed deep within the subconscious and forbidden to see the world outside the mind. It’s easy for me to question myself on the importance of quitting today or keep pushing for success for tomorrow. Much Like Po from Kung Fu Panda, I feel that I am not going to be great like other people out there. In his statement regarding the five other Kung Fu warriors; he trains alongside with, should be the dragon master and not himself. He felt that he lacked talents that make him worthy of the title placed on him. I feel like this most days titles I hold feel intimidating to me. I’m a mother, a wife, a woman, and now a writer. Feeling close to the sentiments from Kung Fu Panda, it teaches me try as someone can they feel insignificant to those who show natural greatness.
Oogway’s statement rings true for it states that we should live at the moment and accept the gifts that one holds to themselves. We can learn from our mistakes in the past but it does not define who we are today.
Do not forget to free the child inside your mind. It stands as the ticket leading to tomorrow but living in the gift of life today.
Written By Ali Johnson
February 25, 2018